I mean, I get it. I totally understand why. And I've known it was coming for like two years now - that eventually, we would up and move. But I came home this weekend for my brother's birthday and in the car on the way here, Dad was like, "Oh, I'm painting your room tomorrow." Which I assumed meant he was going to touch up the blue-and-purple that's been there since I was twelve years old - but then he told me it was going to be white, because the realtors and potential buyers coming through 'find it hard to visualize their own colors and furniture' when the rooms are bright colors.
And then I stayed up all night crying because that sucks.
I know it's a stupid, silly thing to be upset about. Walls are just walls. But that room is mine, and it has been for eight years. It's seen me laugh, cry, dance like a maniac, pretend to be a Jedi, sing into a hairbrush, practice my imaginary swordsmanship, and torment my cat. My home is there. My memories are there. I can be a little girl again in that room. I've grown up in that room. I've loved it. And now our realtor wants to suck all the soul out of it so some stranger with no imagination can buy it.
Which makes me cry.
So today I wrote this little letter to whoever buys my house. I know they'll probably never get it. But I wish there was some way to remind the future owner that once, a little girl who never grew up lived here, and she loved and laughed and learned here, and maybe someday another little girl will feel everything I've felt for this house.
To whoever buys my house:
I hope you love it as much as I have. I'm sad that you won't get to see it as it's supposed to be seen, with the beautiful colors and the posters and photos on the walls. I'm ashamed of how it looks now, all stark and boring because some realtor decided people liked white walls. This house may be only eight years old but for those eight years, it was mine, and I hope that it keeps a little of the love and laughter that I've felt in it.
It's strange to think that it's not going to be my home anymore, after all this. It already doesn't feel like mine and I hate that. But I hope it loves you, and you love it, because a house like this deserves to be loved. Please take care of it.
Love,
Joelle.
I hope you love it as much as I have. I'm sad that you won't get to see it as it's supposed to be seen, with the beautiful colors and the posters and photos on the walls. I'm ashamed of how it looks now, all stark and boring because some realtor decided people liked white walls. This house may be only eight years old but for those eight years, it was mine, and I hope that it keeps a little of the love and laughter that I've felt in it.
It's strange to think that it's not going to be my home anymore, after all this. It already doesn't feel like mine and I hate that. But I hope it loves you, and you love it, because a house like this deserves to be loved. Please take care of it.
Love,
Joelle.
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